Last month I returned home from a business trip to Las Vegas and told Kim I was tired of allowing the church to infiltrate my life to the point of largely determining my happiness.
For as long as I can remember I’ve had one foot in the church and one foot out. Going through the motions has been a simpler solution than honestly facing these issues. But it’s begun taking a toll.
So I’m taking a break from my church.
You probably don’t care, which is how I hope everyone will feel when they read this. Nothing is more personal than a person’s beliefs. I don’t base my friendships on the assumption we both share the same beliefs, and I hope you don’t either.
This morning I woke up, put on pair of shoes I’ve owned for ten years and went for a three mile walk around our neighborhood.
I thought about how thankful I am to be the father of five children that bring immense joy to my life. I considered how lucky to have found a company that allows me to work from home, doing what I love to do. And I’m so glad I found Kim who is an amazing mother, friend, and spouse.
I’ve lived 46 years. I’m no longer willing to turn over my happiness for someone else to judge. Today I put both feet firmly on the ground I choose as I search out what it means to believe.
Either way, it will be my choice.
“If you don’t design your own life plan, chances are you’ll fall into someone else’s plan. And guess what they have planned for you? Not much.” — Jim Rohm (from Scripting News)